I’m downsizing in a lot of respects. Due to my financial problems, I’m moving. I’m sad about it, I love my condo but I just can’t afford it along with all my medical expenses. I’m moving into a house with 2 roommates whom I have known for years. I’ll miss my quiet neighborhood and my balcony, but I get space to myself and a full backyard to plant my veggies and flowers in.
I’ve begun the process of going through items, donating what I can and wondering just how I got so much stuff. It’s a weird relief though, to get rid of things I’m not using. A lot of the “stuff” traces back to my bipolar and my manic phases when I’d make all sorts of impulse purchases to get the instant gratification I loved. I’m also assessing which furniture items will be going to my new place, which I’m donating and which I’m giving to my sister for her house. It’s daunting and tiring, but it’s kept me from thinking negative thoughts.
As far as my health goes, I see a rheumatologist this week and I’m hopeful it will help. I’ve been much better about taking my medications as I am supposed to, thanks to an app on my phone and setting a reminder on my Fitbit. My sleep has been broken of late, but a lot of that has to do with the pain from my fibromyalgia. I haven’t been too depressed the last two weeks, just a slight sadness about having to move, but knowing it’s for the best usually helps shake that feeling off. Overall, I’m really proud of how I am handling this emotionally. I’ve been able to avoid getting overwhelmed and looking at this as a new start.
Readers: Is it hard for you to let go of things? Any big changes coming up in your life? Please share in the comments!